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Showing posts with label Screw up time ♥. Show all posts

Really exhausted~

7:50 PM | Labels: ,

Those who read my blog complain that my posts are all very depressed ones,and now I should make things clear. It's another me who was hidden underneath a mask(Sophia,everyone needs a mask) so just accept it.






We had a sort of self-criticism conference today,I was extremely fierce but apparently still not fierce enough because no one spilled their tears. 




We end our day at school after a round of criticize. Before I left,I saw the emotion shown in Shi Yun,Jing Ling and Yoong Ying's(seniors who are capable in almost everything)eyes...

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Disappointment. Disappointment. And Disappointment.


I felt so bad,guilty and ashamed of myself.
I asked myself over and over again,why can't I do better? 
If those seniors can do so well,why can't I?

I'm truly sorry,to those seniors who really expect very high from me,I know I've disappointed you all,especially Shi Yun,on the day I'm elected as the vice president,you guided me through those days and I really appreciate your help,your advice.You trust me but I can't return that trust.


I'm a weak human.



I know it's a lame excuse but I'm just a human.



Deepest apologies to those who I've disappointed.







I will do better. Believe me. I do. I will.

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Posted by Yiwennn

Naive VS Mature

9:24 PM | Labels: ,

You told me that my action has embarassed you,in a sudden,I felt hopeless...You once claimed that I'm too realistic ,and now you tell me that I act like a kid...


I act like a kid? Do you remember the day you told me that I'm realistic?I was being trained to be like that,I'm not born to be a person who's cold and firm with decisions or things. Do you know how hard is it for me?After I've finally evolved,you told me I'm too mature?

I've tried to be the person you want all these years,although it's tiring and even I hate myself so much for being like that,I've hide all my disgust and kept my mouth shut in front of you........
All pressures and hatred are being on my shoulders all these long,even if it's getting heavier and heavier,I still tried to handle all by myself,I thought I could do it and I believe so~

But do you have any idea how sick is it for me to be realistic? I just want the real me back,so what if I'm childish? 


~Come back,I just want the old me back ~

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Posted by Yiwennn

Oh shit~

6:53 PM | Labels:

Whaddahell am I doing? Okay,we got back our exam papers and I...ugh..not gonna talk about it...


I DID not fail my maths but its no better than fail........ What's wrong with my brain and those freaking genius's one?I asked Jaycie and Aaron to buy me some pesticide and sleeping pills,but they can't get it in 7-11...I felt lyk throwing myself to feed those starving sharks which located at somewhere on this planet where I don't know............



~I wish that you could save me~






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Posted by Yiwennn

Sewing machine =.=

9:04 PM | Labels:

I would certainly say that a tailor will definitely not a choice for my career path. You know why? I just got fed up with those fragile machines,it's like you touch it slightly,then it's ruined...How on the earth should I know the strings should be attached to? The bloody sewing machine went wildly since it's an electronic one...and I nearly sew my finger with the cloth....


PS: Aaron,it's  raining today.....lol..

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