MOOO

Already starting new school life........
The first few days and weeks  of new school did tortured me a lot.....this kinda torturing included:

1) missing my friends everyday and night(and i even take out my毕业特刊 and look over the book every night)

2)new school education type that is pushing me so hard till i feel like suffocated,such as BIOLOGY and CHEMISTRY...

3)sitting bus for one and a half hours just to reach home or going school

4)lots more....
5).................

First, I'm not trying to complain that the life there is hard or anything....but I can say that KC is not my choice,not my first choice for my ideal secondary school.....
But I can't blame anyone....since that's my decision...
This kinda feelings really upsets me a lot......
I did try my best to accept this new school......
Well...its already a fact and I can't change it anymore...
I swallow my tears and bite hardly my lips when I faced problems.....
I keep everything deep in my heart.......

But do you know how painful am I keeping everything in my heart....
Its like having a needle poking me so hard...
Its like having a knife slicing my heart.....
Its tearing my heart into half.......

Almost everyday...tears are filling my eyes......
Almost everday.....my eyes are swollen red.......
Smile has become a way to cover my desperate and lonely feelings when I face everyone in my new school or ex-classmates.......
But hidden beneath the fake smile, how much strength and effort did I put in to force out that dishonest smile.........
I believe that only I who knows about it....

I can't imagine how am I gonna continue my six years of secondary school in this completely new
school.........
I can't imagine how am I gonna face my ex-classmates when I bump in them.......
I may smile......or I may sob......
The things in the future should let it happens naturally......
I can't control what will be in the future......
I can only say that, no matter how hard would it be......
I will do my best.....
I know it won't be easy......
Life isn't a bed of roses.....
I can't guarantee that I can be best among the best.....
but I can promise that I will put in efforts in my studies....
I shall do whatever I can......
This the the best and the smartest way to fulfill my unreachable wish.....
I hope that I can handle it......

Well.....talk about secondary schools....I can really faint for that.....
For the first time in my life I felt so desperate....even though some times I did something really "wrong",I won't have those kinda desperate feelings...
At first,I thought that I can go to a school i really like,but going deep through holidays changed my mind......My parents spend weeks juz talking over and over again with me about my future and everything,the worst is...they even talk about UNIVERSITY!!!Lastly, I decided to spend my secondary life time at Kuen Cheng located in Kuala lumpur......

Impossible is just a big word thrown around by small men who find it easier to live in the world they've been given than to explore the power they have to change it. Impossible is not a fact. It's an opinion. Impossible is not a declaration. It's a dare. Impossible is potential. Impossible is temporary. Impossible is nothing.